"firepitt"

it has been so long since i have sat by a fire and talk life over with friends, but tonight i did just that. there is something about fire in that i could just sit and stare at it for hours and not get bored. it reminded me of being back in little rock sitting out with my boys. things happen at "firepitts" that happen nowhere else. i remember one of my favorite firepitts that was just Justin and myself. i had just gotten back from conference and we sat up for hours telling stories about things that were going on in our lives. we just enjoyed sitting there. thats when life is at its best.

...short on words...

i have only a few weeks before i leave the great state of virginia. i don't know if i'm really ready to leave. this past weekend was great (with the exception of saturday, which i won't go into). graham and i finally crossed the r.o.d., which we had been talking about for a while. not only that but the rope swing has become a very popular thing to do. its amazing the things you will do to have some fun.

i just hope that these next two weeks will be just as great as the first six...

..."single issues"...

today we split up between the couples and the singles. for the couples, the class was called "how to stay in love." for the singles it was called "single issues."

so let me get this straight... couples stay in love and singles have issues. its a bit funny how this is worded. i understand what is ment by this, but i don't think that i have issues...do i?

:hear i am...send me out:

there is a worship song that was written by michael bleeker that has become the theme of my. the chorus goes something like this.

"hear i am, send me out. let me shine for Your glory.
i will read, and i'll live out and proclaim your word.
take me now, show me how. i need to live not for me, but for You and Your glory"

every part of my life is given for and to Him. so many times i think that we are ready to go but we never go through with it. i want the theme of my life to be to go where ever He wants me to go.

"the harvest is plenty but the workers are few"

maybe He was going through the same dilemma that i am going through now. i see so much need for the nations but its rare to find others who are willing to go. i think my favorite part of that song is when it says "i need to live not for me, but for You and Your glory."

i hope my life reflects that...

...the art of waiting...

we live in a world in which waiting is inevitable. its a game we play with each other. some of us are better at it than others but we all play it. i feel that the last few years of my life i have become very entwined with the waiting game. there is always something that i'm waiting for that takes my attention away from the here and now. the question that burns deep within my soul is this. am i ever going to be at a place in which i am content? not content in that i have nothing else to learn but content in that the grass will not always be greener. do you ever have this thought?

i have a month before i leave the country. its so hard to focus on the now, the things right in front of me, and i have some great things right in front of me.

but here is my fear...i'm looking forward so much to leaving. however one day, leaving will be today. when that time comes, will i be satisfied in where i am at....or will i want the pasture that waits my return.

...every so often...

i'm at a place right now that i have never been. living in rockville, meeting some of the most amazing people i have ever met. you hear about men and women who long to do Gods work, but you don't always meet them. these past few weeks i have met individuals who want to see the kingdom of God grow. they want to see every nation worship the one true God.

every friday night i have to pleasure of going to dinner with three of the most amazing men i have ever met. i like to call it "date night", however graham preferrs "savage night." basically the night is full of guys just talking about what the Lord is doing in their lives. we want to change the world. so peyton, matt, graham, and myself will continue to meet every friday night at "fridays" in hopes that throughtout these next couple of years we will get to see the world changed...